Fat or Pregnant?

I feel so bad for my fellow preggie moms who feel like the weight they've put on during the 9 mth stretch, makes them over-weight and un attractive.
Maybe its because I was never super thin, I won't say I was a fat teen cause I was never over weight then but I was much curvier then my less "blessed" friends.
So for me when my belly gets rounder and heavier I'm nothing but happy, people don't judge me, if they do they're freakin idiots. If you're eating bad foods that cause extra weight gain, then don't blame the pregnancy blame your over eating self.
May sound harsh, sorry, just lately I feel like all the sad comments about pregnant girls and their growing bodies being a bad thing, brings me down a little.

I do have complaints of my own, like I've broken out EVERYWHERE! Sorry TMI but its something I'm not used too, I never had bad skin, ever. After Michelle it was bad too, but now its been through the whole 4 mths so far, but I suck it up and know its not something I've done to myself and I invest in better skin stuff, and get over it.

My skin is also super dry all the time, my scalp, my arms, legs, FEET! I just need to learn to drown myself in lotion, and guess what? It helps.

I have heart burn like crazy, last night I cried and Ben had to help me sleep sitting up--ouch.

And lately I'm having huge fears about the actual labor, which last time I was just curious and calm. Now I'm in panic!

So there you go - I love how I look pregnant, its a result of nothing un-healthy. And if I feel bigger, hey! There's always cute clothes, hair and make-up! An effort can always be made ladies!

Sorry for the moody blog - I'm going to go distract myself now.

3 mths and counting!

This was taken on my birthday 3mths and 1 week

So I'm alive and very well! Only threw up once (we were in London) cause I ate late and way too fast! But I conisder myself very lucky!

They only stress has been with Dr offices (I have to change again 2nd time!) and insureance. So we're getting on a different family plan. Pray for us its been such a pain the stress from it alone makes me depressed! But Sep I'm looking forward to finding out what the baby is! That keeps me going!

Other then that I feel so so blessed that I feel this good! I thank God for it every day!

8 weeks

So, sometimes I feel sick, but food and heartburn meds seem to be the cure! I'm super greatful about that.

No pants fit me! I thought it was a myth that you grow faster the 2nd time, but the Dr says thats not the case many times. Like the night before I found out it felt like my pants where tight, and I wasn't eating more than normal. So as of yesterday I started wearing maternity pants, which actually feel amazing compared to strapping a bella band around my jeans. Its definelty different since last time I didn't need to get rid of my jeans until about the end of the 5th mth.

Other then that things have been stable! Every time I see baby stuff now, instead of panic or anticipation, I feel calm and just happy. Its not that this is not just as exciting, its just like the stress isn't there from the first one. I'm not watching the calender a billion times a day wondering if I'm that much closer. Instead, I'm just spending time watching Michelle grow and doing tons of housework which I feel numb to now.

Well thats it for now, not too exciting, but I'm super happy!

Uh oh....

Today I started feeling horrible. Not throwing up just tons of heartburn and nausea. Whats worse is I didn't get a hold of Ben all day which bothers me. I need to remind myself to not take anything out on him and separate the serious things from the little annoyances. We'll see how I do...

It Starts!

Around Midnight May 14th I took a 2nd pregnancy test that confirmed I was...well pregnant! I told Ben by asking if he wanted a birthday gift early and showed him. Two more test were taken with the same results. We wanted to wait a few days to tell anyone to make sure this time. My mom and sister where the only ones who knew.

My first appt is gonna take a while I'm going to a new OB, my last one retired. But I was given instrutions to just keep living life and not stress about anything too much. I was told how to calculate my due date Jan 16th!

So far I feel pretty good, just SOOOO TIRED!!!! Seriously if I didn't have Michelle to take care of I would be sleeping all day! I also have a little heartburn, but not too bad. All in all I'm going to stay positive and not for one moment consume myself with "what if's" and "remember last time's". This is a new pregnancy, it won't be exactly the same as the last and thats a fact.

Ben is so hoping for a boy! Me? I don't care this time, I got my beautiful girl the first time which I wanted sooo bad! Now I'm just going to sit back and enjoy the mysteries ahead!

Thanks for reading! I'll be keeping everyone informed!